I'm A Soldier of WAR.

I'm a Specialist in the Army. I make tanks hit their target with percision. I emphasize presision because I'm a woman. One of two women who had to fight to get an all-male company to fire the first tanks me and my female partner worked on. Did I say we were assigned to an ALL-MALE company. Thousands of men. We went out in the woods every other month to practice war games where accuracy was the ultimate goal and confidence in equiptment and manpower. I had something to prove and prove I did. Target hit dead center! Now, we were flooded with requests for the service only two women soldiers could provide for a country. Yes, Germany.

That was my first inroduction to the Army 30 years or so ago. I'ved aged. But the memories of military life lingers.

The flight to Saudi Arabia for the First Gulf War was filled with uncertainty buy soldiers who never thought they would see war. And to say America was woefully unprepared for war is an understatement. They had not outfitted a large force such as the one deployed during the First Gulf War in decades. Thing dry rot you know. Soldiers had inadequate gear and they knew it also. 

The overseas flight of armed military personnel, with everything needed for their survival if needed strapped to their backs, was a quiet flight of contemplation. For me, my main goal of my journey was never to sit or stand next to a person who I believed to be a weak link. My survival was on my mind. You could tell it was on other people's minds as the weak links were searching out the strongest to CLING to. Not me though. Yes, I was my brother's keeper, but let's start with something I can work with please. A warm up person until I get the flow too. No, I was not one of the weak links. I trained every other month for this for 3 years.

It's wild waiting to fight and kill. You think about it. CAN I KILL? I HAVE NO OPTION NOW. Its difficult to not do anything in war except kill when your life expectancy rate (lowest for Army) is given to you and if your are captured as a woman, expect to be raped often and by several. There were rumors of a draft floating around. I can only imagine civilian's terror as those trained and equipted were not feeling confidence in their abilities, imagine how people with no training would feel. It's all a sad business.

Dropped off in the desert with the only detail being is that you are 20 miles from the active bombing (front line) where we were already setup gives a sense of not being grounded. Information was being despensed on a need to know bases and I was sure there was more I needed to know. the night sky echoed shadows of orange, gold and white from nearby targets being hit. It was a terrifying yet beautiful sight against the blackness of the desert with no man made horizon. I blank canvas of fiery light/

Those who had already been there for months, trying to find ways to get discharged, dishonorably if necessary, was playing out daily. People desparate not to face WAR no longer cared or had shame about their reputation. They only cared about getting home, which took you being on the verge of death to be released of your fear of war. I must even say, women resorted to getting pregnant. The Army caught on and made the women stay past a preganancy termination perion, then discharge them. The Red Cross stepped in several time with "no's" about some practices the Army employed and they stopped this way of curbing discharges during war. Then there were those ready to get this OVER with so they can leave the Spring desert with daily temps of 116. No one was wishing for Summer. Then there were those with grudges eager for revenge. Their first shot would be FRIENDLY FIRE and the higher ups in rank knew there was a target on their back. They were mission oriented with many missions on their mind.

There were the VOLUNTEERS for a sensitive mission who signed up and waited to be called for the assignment. This one was refueling the FRONT lines. These men were the most eager for the war to be over. These were MY guys. They played volleyball hard and laughed hard. They would have drank hard if liquer was allowed in the country. Military can always sniff out a drink wherever it is. But is was nowhere. Finally, one night in the early hours of day taking over night, they got the call. Everyone knew, it (war) had started on the ground. The guy next to me on his cot, smiled before he left and I hoped his family and I would see his smile again.

It was a SHORT war. I didn't fire a shot even the one time I should have and I'm praise myself that I didn't and also berate myself for not shootoing. The memories of war are LONG. Seeing someone's gas mask in a bunker with GAS sirens blasting fail, was traumatic for everyone watching him lower his head knowing if this one is real, he would die before our eyes. Memories are LONG.

The Army is singularly the proudest part of my life after MOTHER. Soldier, wearing uniform saying I will FIGHT for my country's freedom and even injustice that threatens our allies form a brotherhood of spirit forever. That feeling is beyond description. I once put on my country's uniform, boarded a flight to DEFEND democracy. My military life wasn't easy and there was SEXISM on a level no human should have to endure. But, I was also PROTECTED by my country. My country said if she is willing to volunteer to give her life in defense of her country, passes academic AND physical tests, then she can. And I DID. Now it is seen as trying to be a MAN! What?

To see Black people as well as women being mistreated by Pete Hegseth is unbearable. My country deserves MORE. If a woman can survive the NEAR DEATH experience of CHILDBIRTH, then she can be a darn good SOLDIER. Hours of hard painful labor is more THAN any man can endure thank you. Now we are delicate flowers. Really? Or too dumb for any good, but we raise your children with your trust and many times without your help. Dumb people raise DUMB people. Don't be so NEGATIVE about yourself Pete. 

He is building a military for White people and their concerns. Women are being told don't concern yourself with men's business. This cancellation of promotions of Black people and women in a county's patriotic activity is saying, "THIS ISN'T YOUR COUNTRY TO BE CONCERNED WITH." Racists feel good about this. It is erasure. This is the STRONGEST warning shot letting everyone know who this country belongs to.

I started by saying, "I'm a soldier." That will always be true for anyone who ever put on a military uniform. It can't be TAKEN or DENIED. Hegseth should feel and know this. America is in my blood and I'll always defender her in my way. I'M A SOLDIER OF WAR against any enemy of AMERICA either FOREIGN or DOMESTIC. I've EARNED it! I raised my hand and SWORE a life-lonf oath to my country. Violence isn't the answer. THE PEN IS MIGHTIER THAN THE SWORD. 

As a reminder, There are approximately 350,000 to 400,000 Black and African American active-duty and select reserve members serving in the United States military. Black Americans make up about 20% of the total active-duty force, maintaining a high level of representation across the branches. The Trump administration has an out-and-out attack on Black America. If the largest group of military enlistees left the military, our national defense and readiness would be hurt. Racists don't care. As Mohamad Ali said, "Why defend a country that does,'t defend you." I'm encouraging Black military to leave. The slap in the face of NO PROMOTIONS is horrendous. How can any Black person fight for that?

Over 227,000 women serve on active duty in the U.S. military, making up approximately 17.9% of the total active-duty force. If you count the National Guard and Reserves, that number swells to over 400,000 women. The breakdown of female representation varies by branch: Air Force: 21.7%, Navy: 21.1%, Space Force: 19.1%, Army: 16.0%, and  Marine Corps: 10.0%. Historically, women have also expanded into leadership and combat roles, making up roughly 20% of all commissioned military officers. What if they say they are tired of this harrassment and sexism? Can the military afford to lose their numbers along with Blacks? 

Sooner or later, these people in uniform have to make a decision. They are given illegal orders and thrown under the bus when the public reacts. They are shark food basically in the destruction of the military. That is the IMPORTANCE of minorities and women in the military for the Trump administration.

An estimated 48,000 to 80,000 active-duty and reserve service members in the United States military identify as lesbian, gay, or bisexual. This represents roughly 2.2% to 6.1% of the total U.S. armed forces personnel, with a significantly higher representation among female service members. Minority groups represent approximately 31.2% of the active-duty U.S. military, equating to roughly 407,000 service members. Breaking this down, about 18.4% of active-duty troops self-identify as Hispanic or Latino, while over 20% identify specifically as Black or African American. That is a combined total of 707,000 military personal that the Trump administration HATES with not shame or hiding!!!! 

Approximately 68.8% of active-duty U.S. military personnel, or about 897,00 individuals, self-identify as White. Across the total force of roughly 1.3 million active-duty troops, the Department of Defense notes that racial and ethnic minorities make up the remaining 31.2%. If all of the hated WALKED AWAY, our United States militay would consist of 190,000 Caucasian people to fight to continue to protect THEIR majority STATUS?

SEE my POINT? All the HATED people ARE America's military. Add those totals together of Blacks, minorities, women, and gay people and it's massive (707,000). ALL minorities should LEAVE the military UNTIL they are treated with respect and admiration for their protection and service to America. Let Hegseth form the military with that group since it's THEIR America. They should be willing to fight for what they believe in without the assistance from the TARGET of their hatred and public cruelty. I will keep saying this until PEOPLE wake up and QUIT helping people to DESTROY you/us. I am also wonder how many minorities are ICE agents. You're community is next in the domestic WAR on immigration for the same or DIFFERENT PENDING reasons. Those detainment centers are in specific places for specific reasons. THEY so far, have not begun to fill up. Watch this space.

 

Men Of Honor In Uniform

RIP Victor Wills of the Village People who identified/defined MASCULINITY in one photo.

If you have been listening to the news lately, here in my home state, Mississippi, you've been witness to all of the murdering that is happining in the capitol city, Jackson. It is scary, horrible, and a crisis all in one.

Some people are taking advantage of this crime to label minorities as violent criminals when mass shooters have one day of reporting and vanish. The thought is not to talk about THEM so as not to make shooters GLORIFIED. We believe this reasoning even though these shooters are usually White. But many believe white crimes are not reported on as much. They can be back at home for all the public knows. But minorities crimes are treated like the crime of the century. MURDER is a crime. But, how this crime is being FRAMED is the problem. Minorities it seems, are the ONLY criminals and must be taken care of.

There are four major factors contributing to violence, which can be fixed, attributing to this INCREASE in crime in AMERICA, not just MISSISSIPPI. Poverty is a major player in crime. Poor people are frustrated people, angry people, who BLOW form the constant pressure of finincial insecurity. That is a reason there is Black on Black crime in the POOREST neighborhods. Black men have no hope of providing for their family. 

Many CAN'T MARRY because they can't get a job in a racist society that has written off the entire race. They SNAP at the least thing while TRYINNG to have fun in a world that don't want them. Who are the poorest people in AMERICA? Minorities are the poorest and then blamed for being poor. I have began to say it's PTSD from being Black in America. We have the same symptoms as people who have seen combat just trying to live each day in racism.

If you are a person who believes being BLACK in America isn't an everyday job, on YOUR next application for ANYTHING, check the African American box and wait for a callback. Do it for a month, and watch your temperature rise. The higher prices go, the MORE violence there will be.

There is RACISM on a massive scale from the president all the way down to neighbors. The term "REVERSE RACISM" is being floated around by Republicans. White people are suffering because of their skin color. As a majority white administration cut what America was FORCED to do, HIRE at least ONE Black person in a business, guess who couldn't and WOULDN'T? Trump got rid of that law. NO ONE HAS TO HIRE ONE BLACK PERSON ANYMORE. Black History can't be taught. The Black vote meaningfulness taken by gerymandering the vote, and on and on it goes. OUR president even posted on social media our FIRST Black president as an ape with laughter and support from the Right.

 

Fatherless home has contributed to young men in our country joining hate groups such as the Proud Boys to street gangs. They are suffering from NOT having a good male role model. Manhood is slowly dying with Trump and Hegseth pulling the trigger. This has been a generation of LOST boys who are UNABLE to become men, so they become FERAL. From basement hate from a computer to drive by shootings, there is no MAN helping these young men to become men. Now Donald Trump is the ROLE MODEL FOR MANHOOD! God help us all.

Finally, our government INSISTS on letting these people have access to GUNS. Mothers are BEGGING for these weapons of mass destruction to be kept off the streets. Our government says they are needed for hunting. So, government, what is used for all these murders, can we at LEAST keep those weapons off the street? Violence is being supported by the ones saying it is out of hand. Make it make sense!

It has been months since many of the fears that prompted me to originally write this post, have now begun to rear it's ugly head. My military musings, have started to bear the fruits of my fears. I don't mean paranoia type fear nor anxiety ridden fear, it's more of a, "I knew it, but sad to see it's true, kind of fear." I took a chance and put my thoughts to paper (computer). How have your feelings about our military changed since the Iranian War began? Let's get caught up on our Department of War.

President Donald Trump on Thursday called for Michigan U.S. Sen. Elissa Slotkin and other Democratic lawmakers to be arrested and possibly executed over their remarks in a recent video urging members of the U.S. military and intelligence community to refuse unspecified illegal orders.

Trump is showing all signs of using the military for unlawful actions. He has demonstrated his lack of concern for American citizens and the Constitution. He has bombed boats, arrested American citizens, fired people unwilling to be loyal to him, accepted monetay gifts from adversarial countries, and plans ICE raids on churches. HIS lawlessness gas no bounds. His treatment of our military also shows he only cares about WHAT they can do instead of respecting WHO they are.

The Democratic lawmakers are just reading thw writing on the wall. But I wonder, how do OUR men and women feel about this looming possibility of receiving and being expected to carry out unlawful military orders?

What is it like for a person to decide to put on a uniform and serve their country? You are in luck. I made the decision to serve my country in 1986. I wore the uniform of the brave Army. I had a second oppotunity to serve my country in ghe First Gulf War which begun August, 7, 1990. The Gulf War (2 August 1990 – 28 February 1991), was a war waged by coalition forces from 35 nations led by the United States against Iraq in response to Iraq's invasion and annexation of Kuwait. From the first day I wore my uniform, until I was honorably discharged, my duty to my country grew with pride through the years.

We were told we represented America and the Army when we wore our our military uniforms and not to disrespect the uniform. Commanders would come and go, but that was fine, because we pledged to protect our country, not any one person.

All eyes were on the meeting summoning all of the generals by Pete Hegseth. An unprecedented meeting of over 800 US generals and admirals was held on September 30, 2025, at Marine Corps Base Quantico in Virginia. The gathering was called by Defense Secretary Pete Hegseth, with President Donald Trump also addressing the senior military leaders.

 America held its breath in anxiety as to what the duo would say to the highest ranking and caliber of soldier. By their past behavior, the public knew whatever the meeting was about, it was going to be a shocking optical display. The president and Hegseth didn't dissappoint scolding the brains of our military for beinng out of shape, fat.

My hearty sank at the humiliation of a room full of ALPHA MALES. They sat stoicly and took their bitter dose of kool-aid. But did they swallow?

In a surprising development, Adm. Alvin Holsey will step down as head of U.S. Southern Command, a position he’d held for less than a year. The New York Times reported Thursday that Holsey had voiced concerns about the U.S. military’s mission in Central and South America and the recent strikes on alleged drug boats off the Venezuelan coast. Adm. Alvin Holsey, happens to be a Black man and there have been esculation in attacks on boats in Venezuela and Trump giving Venezuela billions of dollars. Holsey's departure came amid tensions with Defense Secretary Hegseth, source said. Admiral is one of two Black four-star officers leading a US combatant command. Holsey's exit follows abrupt firings of other top military officers.

The meeting called by Hegseth of the generals was to let them know who is in charge and who they take their marching orders from. And they were to follow those orders without question. I wondered how did those who wear the uniform, worn it for years, feel about being told their alligiance no longer belongs to a country, but to a man, Donald Trump, and his ever changing vengeful power grab.

When joining the Army, soldiers take the Oath of Enlistment, which includes pledging to "support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic," to "bear true faith and allegiance to the same," and to "obey the orders of the President of the United States and the orders of the officers appointed over me, according to regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice". This oath is a commitment to the U.S. Constitution, not an individual leader. 

I don't know if our military has ever faced a MAN trying to have the service of the military for personal use. The military has been trained to PROTECT our country from attacks on our way of living, our constitution. The is an example in history when the military was used for genocide. Hitler used the arm of his military force to carry out the estermination of Jews for his personal reasons. No longer protecting the CITIZENS of the country but becoming the attacker. Many did not want to caryy out the orders, but they did. Many would be tried for war crimes when found.

I would have loved to have heard the discussion about the meeting by the generals. I know their egos were bruised by the public humiliation aired over and over on the news loop. I was proud of them sitting stone-faced through the scoldinng. But I wonder what was going through their minds.

I have always been proud of American's serving their country. Now, those in uniform have to decide to serve COUNTRY or MAN. We will have to stay tuned to see what our brave, honorable people in service choose.

No reaseon was given for the Sailor's resignation. It might have just been a DEI firinng in disguise. Donald Trump is getting rid of brown and black people in any position of significant power. Will White men join him or help the rest of ordinary people resist tyranical power? Take away a man's maculinity and he will serve you. Was Trump and Hegseth successful in their plant to bend the Department of War? Are they the captain now?

Tamara Stevens, a former navy cryptological technician, said she found Hegseth’s discussion of “lethality” more alarming than anything else, given the context that Trump provided later with comments about using deployments to American cities as a training ground.

“Basically, he’s saying that we’re no better than Hamas because people are joining because they want to break things and they want to kill people,” she said. “I mean, for anyone that’s been in the military, he’s not qualified to be secretary of defense. He’s barely qualified to be a host on Fox News. 

Gen. Chris Donahue, the commanding general of U.S. Army Europe and Africa, submitted his resignation on June 24, 2026, amid a broader overhaul of Pentagon leadership by Defense Secretary Pete Hegseth.

Many military officials anonymously expressed concern and anger. Some reportedly saw the meeting as a political rally and a waste of military spending, while others found the changes demeaning and a step backward for military readiness.

Hegseth’s "resign" comment came after he reportedly fired other top officers in the weeks leading up to the meeting. Some military leaders are reportedly considering their options for peaceful resistance, including legal action or resignation, while weighing the risks of undermining civilian control.

A YouGov poll found that Americans were about twice as likely to disapprove than approve of the meeting. The gathering was also widely seen as a "bad use of military spending". The poll also showed a strong partisan divide, with Democrats and Independents largely critical of the meeting, while Republicans were more likely to see it as a positive use of resources. The ACLU highlighted the meeting as the latest example of Hegseth pushing women out of the military. 

The event and the response it generated underscored deep ideological divisions over the direction of the military. It highlighted concerns about the politicization of the military and the relationship between senior leadership and the Trump administration. For me, the damage is done. You made Alpha men into Beta men if I understand the language of the Red Pill community correctly. I saw leaders of the military spoken to like children. Now, will they behave like children